I Need a Miracle!
Sunday, June 19th, 2005That was the title of the message Tim spoke of today. Listen online. It was really good. It was about how so many times, the disciples and others in Jesus’ time kept asking for miracles - as if they had just forgotten about the many he had just performed. Well, Jesus doesn’t have to prove himself to us; we need to trust Him and believe that He’salways looking out for us and has our best interests in mind.
Patrick and I have realized that his flight school is going to be postponed until 2006. Without going into too many details, the bad financial news we rec’d in April is just now (finally) going into effect. We’re going to make some changes to our current situation, and one of them is not taking on any new ‘ventures’.
It’s a setback… he’s really distraught about it. It’s hard for him to remain positive about his dream. It took him this long to realize it, he finally figured out the school, plan, etc. and now it’s on hold. I try to maintain a positive attitute, remind him that he can still study the program/books, and he’ll be that much more ahead of the game when he’s actually flying. But still… that’s just it… he’s not actually flying. He feels robbed and defeated. It’s so much bigger than just flying, you know? That’s why it hurts so much.
I think it’s worse because there’s really nothing we can do about the news we rec’d. It’s out of our hands… the decision has been made for us and we have to abide by it. I hate that. I hate not having options. I’ve always found that there’s a way around a situation… I’ve always been able to find a work around or talk myself out of something. But not this time. And we’ve tried everything. It’s a ‘play the cards you’re dealt’ scenario.
So send up a prayer for us, as we learn to create our own positive outcome rather than dwelling on what we don’t have. I’ve noticed many instances of God coming through for us in the last couple of months. And in very specific ways, too. It’s really cool! I reminded Patrick (and myself) of that last night. I prayed for specific things (I’ll admit, those things were more ‘wants’ than ‘needs’) but He still honored it. That made me feel special - He’s really concerned and listening to me.
So I guess our miracle is for complete reliance on Him to get us through this season.